小さな白い猫

lil gal in telekung

2011-11-28T02:55:00.001+08:00

Final version:

Original version:

Piety must be balanced-both inward and outward. The outer part must portray the inner part. If the outer part is harmful, then there's something wrong with the inner part.

“O Allah! Make my interior better than myexterior, and make my exterior noble and good..,”

"Ya Allah, jadikanlan dalamanku lebih baik dari luaranku, dan jadikanlah luaranku soleh/solehah..,"

::the du'aa was thaught by Rasulullah s.a.w to Umar r.a.::

I've been very emotional this lately. I'm sorry if I have hurt any of you, both intentionally or unintentionally, physically or emotionally. Sorry..

I'm in love again..

2011-11-08T01:57:00.000+08:00

..with mathematics! XD (cracked face..)

Short semester has just begun. This would be my last semester in my foundation. After my graduation, I'll go for my degree on February 2012. Can't wait for it! :D

-another subject I'm currently taking is Basic Themes of Al-Quran. Very interesting.

flower.beads.more flowers

2011-10-16T22:09:00.001+08:00

p/s: holiday mood=sketching

final project-hardware, and anger

2011-09-30T02:34:00.003+08:00

Bismillah..

I was cleaning my desk, and looked at my notes, full of doodles at the corner part of the pages.
I thought of xeroxing them and share those pieces with the world, but the intention was withdrawn by my laziness.

Lots of things, and occurrences, that are happening in my life, yet, my fingers seems unwilling to type each keypad to put the alphabets and the numerical symbols into words, into sentences, into paragraphs, into a story of my whereabouts.

So, for some brief update, I'm working on my final group project, to make a simple traffic light system by using micro-controller. Still working on the source code. As well as I'm struggling to revise my hardware n troubleshooting subject for my last paper of final exam. After that, I want to spend more time at home...

In this current moment, I can feel that my heart seems to ache/disturbed. I do not know for sure whether it is a sad, or mad, or hatred, and to what, and to whom. I do not know... might be I do not recite Ummul-Kitab in a suffice manner

Mentioning about feeling, I have always wonder, when will I show to people that I am really really disgrace with their unacceptable acts? This morning, I asked this matter to my friend, she's from Pahang while we were having lunch. To my utter amazement, she told me that she can detect I'm not in a good mood whenever I keep on silencing and do not give much respond, but it would only last for a couple of minutes and after that I would return to my normal state. But....I'm not sure about that anyway, it might be because I do not know how to respond without hurting the others feeling while joking around. hrmm... I still need to figure out about this.

I played a war with a junior of mine. Whoever makes their opponent's notifications reaches 100 first, wins chocolate chip cookies, and I won the prize :D She almost beat me with that 90 notifications for my account..

p/s: I miss "The Horizon"-Roller Coaster =P I hope I can meet you up before you gone afar. (::referring to a girl, not a boy::)

Hidup ini penuh dengan cabaran dan amanah...

Seeking inspiration

2011-08-29T06:48:00.000+08:00

It has been a while I haven't doodling nor do I draw anything. Maybe due to some sort of heartbreak, so I stopped for a while, and do some crafty thingy instead.

Maybe I need to reminisce some past moments that may spark some colours mixture in my mind, so that I can translate the picture of it into a piece of paper.

Let's begin with white: The colour of ebony. Which definitely reminds me of my white kitties. Or the Kancil car when I had my driving classes.

Red: Burning emotions. Can be anger, passion, pain or love. Remembering those pasts that made my face blushed and flushed.
Passion: I've done my hobbies, and tasks full-heartedly, ran here and there, to and fro, to make sure things when smooth. *Running sometimes caused me blush :p
Anger: Past events when I was 13 years old and below, to hide my weakness of me being blur and innocent-minded.
Pain: Mentally-Sometimes things put me down, causing my heart to ache. Physically-I remembered how I fell from my bicycle when I was 6, avoided a pretty little dog popped in front of me in a sudden. Or the story when a big guy accidentally sat on my hand, causing my nail on one of my little finger to bleed.
Love:My parents ;) hahaha... I'm not into those non-mahram with non-mahram geli-geli lovey-dovey type. Dosa!Sin!!!

Orange: Energy. Reminds me of my watch that I had when I was 13. Orange in colour, water-resistant and lovely design.

Yellow: Friendship. Healthy.
I'm blessed to have friends that accept me for who I am, and guide me whenever I've done wrong.

Green: Vegies-my fav.
Designed our wushu flag. Can't remember much, whether the dragon on the flag was green on the red flag, or it's other way around.

Blue: Facebook. Twitter. Tumblr. Bluetooth. Sky Eater.hahah.. This colour only reminds me things related to networking and computing.
By the way, I started blogging since in the early of 2009. The blog has been deleted anyway, because I felt guilty publishing a blog without my loved ones consent (my parents, obviously). Previously I used Vox to blog. The URL was sparklingkitty.vox.com, which has no point for you to click on the link. (Vox is no longer in service).

Violet: My school bag. Printed with big letters of Tropicana Life on it. Generally reminds me of my final year at secondary school.

Black: The nights when I gone for Silat practices. Also, reminds me of Nek Tam, a black cat which is the ancestor of my white cats.

Grey: My 60x60 inches scarf that can match with any clothes of mine.

Pink: My phone. Currently haven't deleted 2678 messages in inbox, and 2469 in outbox.
Oh! Because raya is just around the corner, I'm picking one of saved text-message in my archived messages by a great freind of mine, which she sent me last year of raya ^^

" Of ketupats n lemang ladled with a generous helpin of beef rendang. N trays of freshly baked cookies. Slmt hr raya! ;) b careful on d roads though u r nt drivin. "

Need to sleep for now. Enough staying up.

Wishing all muslim n muslimin

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, maaf zahir & batin

in advance...

p/s: nak main mercun pop-pop. lain2 mercun xde beran. ^^"

I don't want to adore or crushing anyone!Please! (edited)

2011-08-14T03:28:00.007+08:00

Salam to my lovely muslim & muslimin..
and Hi, to all..

taken from pictures-of-cats.org, Photo by Martha★

Love. Too many descriptions for this feeling. When one anticipates in it, he or she would unlikely to break from the spell of love. Its too addictive. Its too sweet. And, sometimes, it would cause a great pain. And I'm referring to the feeling of Falling in love. The process of 'falling in love' is way too different from a person is already in a loving situation, whereby falling in love is more towards infatuation or obsession.

When I was a school-girl, girls were (and still are) usually became hyperactive and gone overexcited when gossiping or light-chatting about their boyfriend, their crush, and all those lovey-dovey stuffs (including Korean dramas, movies and songs that are all encircled around love stuff).
School-guys, they have always overexcited with DoTA, Counter-Strike, Gundam, Bleach, football, basketball.. etc.. etc.. They tend not to talk openly in their big circle of friends about love feeling they had on his crush like they do about gaming.

However, the situations no longer seems to be like that when they have graduated from their schools.

Girls are less mania about liking guys. They chat more about family, religion-related discussions, hobbies, philosophies of life, health, remarkable moments they've observed before, and fashion (like always).

While guys...they seem non-stop to say or express their feelings they had for a girl they have a deep crush, (though they still obsess with their hobbies as usual).. almost like...everyday??? If not about their secret crush, they would mention and discuss publicly, through forum, blogging and social networking about marriage, engagement, their very own future baby(ies')'s name(s), and love enigma they have gotten into. Sometimes they always make their statements that have ambiguous/ double meaning. Also, they love to insert the gals name once or thrice in their conversations with the people/ friends that know about his secret of liking to that someone. All these proves have broken a myth that I had believed before. In reality, guys are just the same as girls. They do like love-thingy too. And their liking to that special-one of theirs are more critical than girls do. Ratio of suicidal acts of guys are statistically more than girls due to heartbreak that they couldn't face when their partners clashes with them.

Pic taken from somewhere in the internet.

Okey, drop with that. What I really wanted to highlight is...
Sometimes, you would wonder, why do you even like that person in the first place?
Why do you even want the person so badly?
Why do you still even want to endure the pain in your chest when you see that special-one is scandalised/gossiped/having a special-relationship with other than you?
Why don't you just forget about that person when he or she is making you worse?(while true love is suppose to bring out the best in you)
Yet, you still letting yourself hypnotized by the appeal of him/ her that suits your taste of your dream guy/ girl that caught your heart in the very first place after you saw him or her because you are so addicted to it. Yes, I know. It's a love-drug. I've tasted it, about months ago, and it has done no good. Love-potion is better, because it cures your inner-side. I've tasted this too. And still tasting it. With my Ibu, Dad, siblings, and a few select friends of mine.

drug==dadah; potion==ubat; not that love-potion to make someone falling in love with you, I'm reffering to its literal meaning :p

I was in that condition before I apprehended myself that it's not the right thing to feel that way.
I have my core course subjects that I have to focus upon.
I have my family that has not yet receive my total commitment and love, even my mom sometimes feels I do not love her... It's merely because I'm still learning to control my shyness to express my sense of love into an action without blushing, because I'm not used to do those loving acts. I love to keep my true feeling to myself, unless there's a dire need for it to be shown, but usually exposed in my drawings or any other arts...
and also, I have cats that are just like my babies to be taken care of. My parents shouldn't be the ones who commit themselves to make sure their shelter is in spic-and-span condition.
sigh...

and my Ibu simply said to me...

Ibu:
"Dear (in real life, she didn't call me that :p only in message), just imagine, the one you that you crushed is like a car that you are targeting to buy. Just increase the value of you needed to obtain the car"

Me:
"Hrmm...like that? So he is just like my favourite car, Smart for 4 :D "

Ibu:
"Yeah. Maybe.. But Smart for 4 design is outdated already... "

Me:
"I still like it anyway"

Ibu:
"When a new car that is way better than that Smart car is being released, you're going to change your mind sooner or later"

Me:
"Hahah... I think that's quite true. Because I'm planning for a hybrid car too...
ermm.. Don't Ibu think that when Ibu exemplified my condition with buying a car...it sounds like a car can be a second-hand or not the best for me as sooner I'll find a car that suits me better? So, does that means I just have to prospect him until I'm quite sure enough he is not taken, or there's any other guy that suits my taste and complement my needs better, and I'm ready enough for any relationship and commitment (of course in halal way), isn't it???"

Ibu:
"Finally. You have gotten the key-points...and in actuality it's more than that...but you can think by your own. And one more thing, you must make sure he is not a display car, which people usually use it for test-drive... and you never want that type of guy, do you?"

Me:
"You're right.. :-o Certainly I won't like that kind of guy."

and then she called my AbangLong to tell about our discussion and my answers as my brother had known earlier that my Ibu wanted to approach me with this concept of crush to help me to get through with it. Both of them laughed about it, and I joined the laugh too... it was a good counselling anyway.
This has helped me to feel better and manage to handle the problem that stressed me out.

-The full conversation was in Malay language, and my Mom's English is better than mine.-

My dad added that...the current personality of a guy is not fully true, because he is still depending on his parents, has scholarship that helps him to pay his education, etc.. If you want to see the real him, wait until he has become a true working man. Than you will know the true him when all things have to depend on him only.

My dad added some more:
"That crush feeling might be very little, and just a little ignition only, but later it is later magnified and put in aflame by Syaitan, to make you feel uneasy and restless and unfocused to almost everything, even in your ibadah... Manzil is the cure for it, as you have always known. Go and read it up."

Praise to Allah, the Manzil have helped me a lot too.. very much..

:D

Sometimes, the feeling popped-up in a sudden if I'm not aware enough to control my mind to focus on something else other than the crush. And its the manzil that I have always seek.

hrmm...

p/s: projects and assignments are building up frantically D:

p/p/s: It's ramadhan al-mubarak everone!!! Fasting month is great. :D
Ramadhan Kareem!

It's exam month

2011-07-24T03:55:00.003+08:00

Salam.

This initial month is our mid-semester exam season.
I have 2 more papers to go, which are programming and also troubleshooting-comp hardware.
Studying like a super-nerd.
Super-duper-nerd.
Super-duper-cheeseburger-nerd.
No.
Its only a hyperbole.
I haven't even yet started revising.
I promise, by tomorrow morn I'll open my lovely notes.
Wait a sec...
I don't even have the notes...
Just text books and exercises made...
but, yeah..better than having nothing to refer at all.

Because of the so-called mid-semester examination
My stress level has almost reached its peak.
But hey, I'm cool with that.
Eustress is my favourite.
Unfortunately, it's the distress that is irritating me.
because..
I have an inevitable problem that has just arose in a sudden,
without my consent..
without my want..
without my liking..
I wish to write down THE PROBLEM that is pounding my head..
grinding my brain..
nibbling my soul..
grr...
how I wish I could just force myself to post the matter here..
how I wish...
huh..
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but, I realise, I couldn't do that...
I do not have the courage...
ahahaha...
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goodnight world...
goodnight me...
goodnight you...
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wslm....

I AM A MISERY~

2011-07-02T18:13:00.000+08:00

Salam to muslim & muslimin,

and Hi to all :)

I'm supposed to be at home since yesterday, since my troubleshooting class was cancelled yester-morn , but because of this...

(This is not the real finalised poster of our AGM. Software used was GIMP 2.6.8. Using GIMP is quite similar to Photoshop, but it doesn't support CYMK mode.)

...I can't be home yet until tomorrow as our shooting haven't come to completion, merely for the AGM gimmick.

huh...

huh..

huh..

Just want to let the world knows that..

I..

am..

missing..

heh...Some sort of random design..

p/s: I'm good at programming language and lacking in troubleshooting.heh...

Tiring yet exciting

2011-06-27T03:30:00.001+08:00

Salam to muslim & muslimin, hello to the others ;)

It has been weeks I've attended meetings after meetings, and I'm willing to put a short pause for my activeness in the societies. I love to attend to such thing, because there is where I can brush-up my skills, besides to strengthen our brotherhood and to release our tensions (irony?). Yet, it is quite exhausting as I have to rush to two meetings at the same time whenever there's a clash between them in timing. Oh, well, the venues weren't that far between both societies meeting places.

In ICT society, I have to become one of the committees in Publication & Protocol Bureau. In that group, we had to think of gimmicks for our Annual General Meeting, luckily some bunch of my Silat members came to the rescue in giving some wonderful ideas on how to make a good gimmick. Here are the tips that they gave me:
1. Know the floor plan
2. Know the tentative
3. Gimmick for video must not exceed 5 minutes or the audience will start to get boriiiing...
4. Enjoyable
5. Comittees must not 'syok sendiri'.
6.Make some backup plans up to infinity... :-o
7. Set a theme for a gimmick-whether suspense, panic, horror, cheerful...
etc...

and they chose me to become one of the actress. heh..

Our bureau also have to make a lot of designs-pamplet, poster, name tag, invitation cards, and so on...besides making announcements to promote the ICT students to attend our AGM..

In PSSCM, I'm the secretary for the event, which is a very new pose held in my grasp that had never been attached to me before this for about 20 years since I was born. Not only that, I'm made to become the MC for the PSSCM AGM.In english. In front of hundreds students. huhuu...

My eyes are drooping.. I need to sleep for now. Will continue updating after some short interval... Ta'a~!

p/s: pranked mildly towards our roomate for her birthday. It was fun and she had fun too...

Please forgive me...

2011-06-18T19:02:00.004+08:00

Ya Allah..
I repent to you..
To forgive me..
To help me..
From this wrongdoing trying to nibble my soul, and my heart..
You gave me this test..
To test my faith to you..
Please..
Oh,Allah..
Don't let me go astray from this righteous path..
Don't let the others mislead me..
And I'm thankful to you....
For startling me up from going deeper into the unseen abbys made by the human's foe..
For giving me strength, countering those Syayatin that are trying to magnify their seduction of sins to me..
Thank you, O Allah..
Thank you..
Syukr Alhamdulillah..

إِيَّاكَ نَعْبُدُ وإِيَّاكَ نَسْتَعِينُ

To you I worship, and to you I seek refuge..
Insya'Allah..

Foods for my friend's eyes

2011-05-05T01:22:00.002+08:00

(non-DSLR camera)

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Doodles-edited

2011-05-01T18:26:00.054+08:00

The above sketches:

The closed eyes
A calm cat
A monster sky eater
The sad and touched faces, with the same eyes and eyebrows expression
A smiling mouth-based on a Hindustani face of my roomate's CD, Te Ha. Just remembered now that sketching or drawing s non-virtually of living being or their face (especially nose and mouth) or printed figures of such thing are not allowed unless for educational need and purpose, in Islam's regulation.
A hairy hand
A helping hand
A baju kurung
My Nokia slide phone
A long-fur cat
A chicken
A praying girl
A decent attire with decent length scarf-60 inches width
Thorn and roses sketch
An open book

Attempted to draw my siblings' features-failed

30 minutes or less-pencil drawings

2011-04-26T01:33:00.000+08:00

I was drawing this yesterday and captured the above snaps using my phone (1.0 MP rather than 3.2 MP). After 30 minutes +/-, this is the final piece:

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And also,

few years ago I drew a sketch of my first cat, Si Putih.

Another snap through phone, but better resolution- 5 MP, because it was roommate's. Just posting here to make this post seems lengthy.

After some brief colouring, here's the result:

p/s: Sorry to some bunch of awesome friends out there wanting to chat with me. I'm not quite available during this month as I have to finish up my dad's database before May. Deadline is too soon..!

Defied the odds, I've succeed (Delayed Post)

2011-04-20T13:35:00.003+08:00

Yesterday (14 April) , I went for my driving test. My mom handed over a formal letter for the head JPJ officer (or anyone from JPJ side) before I gone with my dad to send me half way to my driving centre, for my driving teacher to fetch me up.

At the centre, I followed my teacher, whom I call kakak. She brought me to make a little appeal about my little request that has a deep reason and very important on my behalf. Without any difficulties, the request was approved.

My number in my session was 46. Means there were 45 people made the test first. I was a little hopeful and a little afraid at the same time whether I manage to do the hill or fail to do so because I witnessed most that failed were females more than the males by the ratio of 5:1. Before I stepped the clutch, I made my pray. Yes, I did pass that one, without repeat. With a happy heart, I gone to make parking and 3 pointer test after that, and all of them were marked with zero defect.

After solat Dzuhur, we waited for the road test to be held. The test begun and the queue number were cut very fast. While waiting for my turn, I saw quite a few candidates were back with the JPJ people drove the cars. I LoLed, deep inside in my heart of course. Hopefully they manage to pass the test when the next time they take it again.

My number was called. I told the teacher from the centre about my request before he send me to the test car and he was startled by my plea like any other who would hear about it. Muah.Hahah.hah...

Because of the rare solicitation from a candidate like me, I had to wait for another car that suits my appeal. The car that met my request arrived with a soldier candidate sat at the passenger sit. Huh... Even a soldier failed. Maybe because he can't handle the gear and the steering as his left hand's was bandaged.

(Continued writing this post-20th April 2011- 1:29pm)

I sat at the driver's seat and handed over the marking form to my tester. We started our test and ended up beautifully. 18/20. The End.

(The request: Female tester for me- 'Mahram' Issue)

Digits and Me

2011-03-29T01:39:00.002+08:00

I disliked Math when I was standard 4. Truly hated it ( Except for the pre-school counting class and every Math subject for pre-standard 4. I scored for those) I never had an A and had always gotten C or B and failed once. For the sake of straight As, I struggled month by month until I can get A with consistency in every test and exam. When the UPSR result was announced, I didn't roll any tears nor does I became extremely excited, although I got 5As. It was really unexpected as I was not sure if I was able to achieve As for English and Math. When I was gripping my result, only 1 thing kept on revolving in my mind 'This is not my final achievement'.

I started my secondary school life as a boarding school student. Culture shock overwhelmed me, thus I shifted to an ordinary public school a year later. When I was studying there, I was afflicted with many difficulties. (As you all know, it is very common for every single student to face peer pressure while schooling, and I was no exception). However, thanks to those troubles that tried to smash me, I started to love Math. When I tried to forget all the problems trying to stress me out, I would finish up my Math homeworks (besides made my pray to Allah to strengthen my heart). They sooth me out. Each and every time I manage to answer all the questions, I felt very satisfied.

Since then, calculator is one of my best buddies. It's one of my hobby tool. Whenever I use it, it would reminds me a lot of memories.

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I was doodling this two nights ago. So I made an entry about my calculator because of this drawing piece. My fingers almost 'paralysed' drawing the details, especially the buttons-'cincai-cincai'.

(My calculator does looks well-worn from my classmates')

Nostalgic songs :)

2011-03-26T18:15:00.001+08:00

Posting some videos with cute lyrics.

Vid 1#: Ayam by Jalil Hamid

Our siblings chicken-danced and sang this song when we were kids. Such a good memory.

Vid 2#: Makan by Jalil Hamid

It is very sad that our people no longer producing such simple and cheerful songs anymore :(

Sekapur sirih, seulas pinang

2011-03-26T08:46:00.002+08:00

Hey o,

I'm working on this blog now:

Sekapur sirih, seulas pinang

Don't worry, I won't abandon this meowinthesky. ;)

Basic Introduction on Web Hosting for Beginners (Server Tools)

2011-03-22T17:48:00.014+08:00

Salam. and Hi.
Morning everyone. (And an extreme morning for me)

My dad is in his office room, my mom is in the kitchen, my youngest is asleep during this very nice weather-it's raining during this morn-envying him :-O , and I'm sitting on the couch reading about server tools. Preparing some knowledge on web hosting, before my dad starts speaking 'greek' to me about my new job, that's what he said few minutes ago :-S

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The result slip

2011-03-19T20:58:00.002+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum dan salam sejahtera..

Bismillahirahmanirahim...

I'm opening it now

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(Submitting- Session 2010/2011, Semester 2)
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(opening the Result Slip tab now...uhh... my fingers seem paralyzed. Viewing it now)
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Alhamdulillah.. all praises to Allah.. I'm blessed.. Thank you Allah.

My overall result really above my expectation.
:)

X)

XD

:D

By the way, have a look on my IELTS/ TOEFL results for semester 1 and semester 2

(Minimum requirement-Band 6 for Writting and Overall banding

(I was not exempted for semester 1 because my writing wasn't band 6 for the least, though the overall was 6.5)

I hope from this progression, my MUET wouldn't be a trouble for me to get favorable banding.
Today is one of those days I'm feeling happy.

lalala...~

Adios...

p/s: Tonight, 19th March the moon is the brightest and the biggest. It is called, Supermoon.

SUPER MOON FULL

"The last full Moon so big and close to Earth occurred in March of 1993," says Geoff Chester of the US Naval Observatory in Washington DC. "I'd say it's worth a look."

The time has come

2011-03-18T15:23:00.003+08:00

finally...

Assalamu'alaikum..and good evening

4 months of knowledge that I have struggled the neurons to familiarise with.

Only half of a day, only that duration they gave me to test my ability to answer, and to argue with the question papers.

And only a few clicks that all I need for now to know my level in that conquest.

1#. Login

2#. Server Problem

and this

ow yeah..!

It has been like this since yesterday, 5 pm, the actual time for the result to be released, according to my campus website dated 11th March 2011. Such a relief for me. Still have some ample time to pray for awesome grades.

Before ending up this post, have some good time watching a video, I mean..listening to a song as the video only has a static picture of Poe. Its lyrics kinda cute. Saman (means fine) sang by Poe, once a Malaysian reggae.

Lirik lagu Saman(A LA LA LA DATUK)- Poe

Saya nampak tu

* A la la la la tuk

A la la la la tuk

Tuk jangan saman

Tolong

** A la la la la tuk

A la la la la tuk

Tuk kita kawan

Sape kawan

Saya minta tolong pada datuk

Jangan saman

Saya ada perjumpaan

Dengan persatuan

Surat saman macam ini

Saya ada lapan

Termasuk yang ini wahai datuk

Sudah sembilan

Tolonglah datuk (tolong datuk)

Tolonglah jangan saman (jangan saman)

(Encik dengar sini, hey)

Mana boleh tidak saman

Pandu kereta tak reti perlahan

Orang lain pun guna jalan

Mereka ikut peraturan

Besok bayar saman ini

Ini sudah sembilan kali

Kali ini jangan lalai

Nanti awak tidur..tidur
balai....

Ulang * dan **

Saya janji pada datuk

Sumpah saya tak buat lagi tuk (betul ke)

Pandu kereta laju laju

Takut langgar tembok

Saya tak tipu

Saya cakap betul

Saya janji pada datuk

Betul betul punya janji

Saya tak buat lagi

Tolonglah datuk (tolong datuk)

Tolonglah jangan saman (jangan saman)

(Dengar sini, hey)

Lapan saman tidak bayar

Janji awak saya tak percaya

Tandatangani kertas ini

Awak tidak akan lepas lagi

Besok bayar saman ini

Ini sudah sembilan kali

Kali ini jangan lalai

Nanti awak tidur..tidur
balai....

A la la la la tuk

Tuk jangan saman

Tolong la tuk

A la la la la tuk

Tuk kita kawan

Ape kawan

A la la la la tuk

Tuk jangan saman

A la la la la tuk

Tuk kita kawan

(Dialog)

Mana boleh tidak saman

Pandu kereta tak reti perlahan

Orang lain pun guna jalan

Mereka ikut peraturan

Besok bayar saman ini

Ini sudah sembilan kali

Kali ini jangan lalai

Nanti awak tidur..tidur
balai....

A la la la la tuk

Tuk jangan saman

Pergi bayar saman

A la la la la tuk

Tuk kita kawan

Tidak kira kawan

A la la la la tuk

Tuk jangan saman

Jangan awak lalai

A la la la la tuk

Tuk kita kawan

Nanti tidur balai…

Lagu: Ian Lewis

Lirik: Poe

( The original video, which is available at youtube, is quite 'geli-geli' to me)

Ta~

(My cats are cute! *pinching their cheeks)

THE GIFTS THAT ARE TRULY OUT OF THIS WORLD

2011-03-16T02:27:00.009+08:00

which is a sentence of sarcasm for rubbish gifts.

I forgot,
assalamu'alaikum,
and..
hi

(Fondling my pretty birthday shoes given by my parents while typing this-the shoes are for raya, too precious to be worn so soon)
Decorative presents, flowers, CDs, foods, wrist-attached accessories, clothes, jewellaries, hobby tools, gadgets, cards, and books are common types of pieces of thought for someone, someone that has great value in your eyes.
That someone can be your spouse, mother, father, brother, sister, or any other family members. Eitherly, the special one can also be your friend, teacher, prime minister, iconic stars, neighbours, elderly people, kids, and lots more.
The gifts presented to them generally by purchase (branded or unknown brand) or in a very special type, handmade presents. Handmade is the rarest gifts of all. You are thinking of that person in the beginning of the creation until the end of the last touch for that little artwork.
(That reminds me of my exclassmate. She made her own bookmark using beads for her only sister. I asked her whether I can help her with that, but she didn't want me to interfere. The reason now is obvious to me. I had nothing to do with her sister, so I shouldn't tried tarnishing the love that she was carving for her.)
Basically, reasons for giving them gifts majorly because of certain occasions; appreciation, celebration, apology, merely to make them happy, or because of thinking of them when looking at the item. Meanwhile, negative reasons usually for blackmailling, bribing, or getting rid useable, yet, uneeded things that has been shun in a corner for so many years (dusty, crinkled and worn out). Now we have enterring the best part.

(Its azan :-O Isyaq praying time. Will continue later after I pray and read ta'alim..and eat a plenty of food)

Let's continue..
I would like to recall a story of a friend of mine. She was given a broken clock from her best friend, a friend which was one year older than her and from the same school as her. Her friend claimed that she wanted her to take care of the thing as how she had took care of it (the clock was originally a present from her friend's mother to her friend). My friend didn't have any clue why she was given that junk, but because it was given by her so-called bestie, she took it without complaining. Their friendship continued to last until last year, and stopped till then, because they've gone to separate institutions, and that's not the real case. The real issue was, she found out her friend had betrayed her.

(Checking my student portal for a while..
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Oh my! Results is coming out this Thursday! I hope the grades will be good for my sight!)

Story 2.
There was another friend of my other friend. She gave my friend loads of her old things at one single time. The things are usable, yet not very much useful to her. There's nothing she can do with them. It really had shocked her receiving all the stuffs (the shocked part was very appropriate. She was told to receive a surprise, and they really worked on her. SHOCKED!)
The things she received shouldn't be called GIFTS at all, but a second-hand belongings. My friend was totally sad, and threw them all out, few months later, one by one. At first, she tried to assure herself, the presents were very much high in value, but as the times goes on, it doesn't work like that. The philosophy of gift is based on the receiver's character and personality, besides that giver must like them too. The presents that she has received didn't have such quality. Even as small as an atom. To make it worse, they were used.Even her friends told her, they would cry bitterly getting those recycle things.
In fact, a present really does signify the hidden hint of a relationship. In this case, when she finally get rid of those things, she was utterly amazed with what she was doing. She felt happy and relieved at the same time. After that, she put a judging cap on, and decided to let the person loose from her friendship boundary. She was no good to my friend, no positive impact that my poor friend received. My friend was depressed every time she was in contact with her. She tried to motivate the fella when she was down.That person did the same for her too, but in a negative way. Lead her to the reactive parts, opposing proactive qualities.

Thus, if you truly have nothing to give, just show some sincere tender, love and care, and that are the most valuable gifts of all. Additionally, it is better to give nothing then giving some garbage to other people. Not all humans have the same idea liking to receive things that are worth throwing, unless you have put some effort altering it become one of a kind and looks smart, though not so pretty. Besides, if you really want to lend them to your friends, ask their permission first. It's an ethic.

Evermore, to me, du'aa is the best gift of all time. While mentioning that...
to readers, muslim, and muslimin out there, please pray that this 17th March, when I open up my result slip, around 5pm, the grades are super duper incredible!

Love you guys!!!

and mom, and dad, thanks for the shoes. I love them very much!!! Thanks for managing us well too... :)

Our pretty roses, picture-credit to my dad

it says: "remember me in your prayers..."

What does it feels like to have brothers

2011-03-10T18:49:00.003+08:00

Assalamualaikum..
and..
Good Day everyone..

It has been 2 weeks of my holiday, and there's nothing I would like to complain about it. During my birthday, I was given a lot of presents. More people begun to wish me too, after I intentionally told and reminded my friends, certain of them. Thanks a lot. I'm glad that you guys tried to fulfill my requests. It is fun to have friends that are cheerful and igniting the cheer in me too. (smiley face)

It is very pity that my eldest bro is having a toothache. Maybe he was very hardworking, causing his teeth forgotten being taken care of. This brother that I'm having is a very caring and was the one i loved the most to be teased and bossed around, only when I was still a little girl. Especially when the time he was back from school, I disturbed him if he gone to sleep on the bed without changing his uniform to casual attire. Naughty sister. My prey for now is my youngest. Somehow, I cannot being bossy to him, only teasing would be allowed as his age and mine is just one year gap, like a peer.
While my second brother, was a joker to both me and my youngest back during the 1990's. He would let us laughed till our stomach felt like bursting. He was fun anyway. He taught me how to play chess, both the usual and Chinese chess. However, it has been always him championing the games, until now. Uhh..maybe my conscious is giving him mercy to let him win. Bahahaha..naah...his strategy level is higher than me. That's why.
.. and my youngest brother. Since we were kid, we teamed up when playing electronic games. Even just now, I helped him giving some tips when he encountered the boss. No player would see a fiend's weakness for a very short time as the main character has to jump here and there from the upcoming attacks unless someone (like me- tongued out face) is there and spotted the enemy's pattern of attacking.

Tomorrow I'll be having my 2nd driving class. Road driving. I'm having fun. Yesterday was fun too. Sweats was all over my face. Because of the heat in the car, air-conditioner switched off, for the sake of nature. FYI, it is not that I failed on my P, as I haven't undergone on any test yet. It is just that I have to repeat the minimum required hours of practicing. The gap between the time finished practicing and the QTI test shouldn't exceeds 6 months, and I've exceeded that.

I'm going back to watch my bro playing ps2.
Have a nice day.. (~~excited face~~ :D )

I love my siblings. They're AWESOME!

2 weeks of torture, 3 months of bliss

2011-02-06T12:45:00.001+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum, and good day everyone.

This upcoming 9th February will be the first battle for my final war (2010/2011).
After 23rd, no, by 23rd, no more combat starting from the mid-day. May the brain work effectively and alert, and the fingers are strong enough to swish the pencil, or the pen.

http://planetoddity.com/how-to-make-a-pencil-crossbow/

(I want to play archery... Means when finally I'm at the main campus will be the dream come true)

Day 4: Induced voltages & Inductance, and AC-circuits & electromagnetic waves

2011-02-04T20:37:00.000+08:00

There's a moth in my room. (Rama-rama. Not kupu-kupu)

Day 2: Physics-Magnetism

2011-02-03T15:45:00.000+08:00

HAPPY

CHINESE

NEW YEAR

to everyone

(*studying physics-day 1)

countdown

2011-02-02T21:51:00.001+08:00

1. FINAL EXAM (9-23th February)
Vision: 3.5 cgpa for the least.
Mission: To progress my understanding on the courses taken.

2. BIRTHDAY (__th February)
Vision: To become more pious and matured.
Mission: To upgrade my ibadah performance, in each and everything, merely for Him.

3. LONG-HOLIDAY-BREAK
Vision: To get P license.
Mission: To drive excellently

Relationship

2010-12-27T15:07:00.005+08:00

Assalamu'alaikum.. :)

Hello people~!
I'm updating my blog, meaning I'm having a holiday break! Yeah! XD (I heart cuti-cuti). Unfortunately, my darling PS2 is not at home, my brother took it with him. He's at Malacca now, spending his holidays there. It was so sudden and now I'm having a lot of attention from my parents because I'm the only child left in the house. Jadi anak tunggal. ahaks! Smothered with tender, love and care. I could die from these. hoho...joking..joking.

Got to tell you, I'm no longer having culture shock. My true self is showing bit by bit. Someone said that last semester I was not this cute.*chuckling & blushing. I don't know whether I should take it seriously, heh? Another friend of mine said that I have become more talkative. And another one said that actually, I am really a funny person. Uhuh..? I think she must be referring to my geeky jokes. I'm still new to sarcastic jokes. Still learning here from my roomies. :D By the way, it is because of my personality type, my true self will come out slowly. Once I have decoded my surroundings, I will start to devastate them with my touch.*pling! :p

Okey Okey. I gotta stop. The thing that is disturbing my little brain is about relationship. I mean between people in a community. Yeah, without good relationship, how can we live organizationally? Currently, I'm making a lot of friends of both sexes in my foundation. Yup, they are Malays. Many people (including Malays themselves) make negative remarks about Malays (these people claim that they are not Malays but are Javanese, Bugis and other ethnic groups that are actually part of the Malay diaspora) I have now made up my mind that Malays are not as bad as some have said. ;)

I've progressed in so many ways, thanks to the friends that I've made recently. As I get to know them more, I've gained a lot of confidence and have become more motivated..
By the way, thanks to them, I'm able to observe the raw feelings that is common at our age. Things like infatuation, like, love, lust and obsession (and yes, there is also hatred). So here is some explanations for such kind of diseases of the heart (credits to the owners):

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It's Holiday~! woot!

2010-11-27T01:54:00.004+08:00

Just finished my assignment, Computer 1, task 1(b) <<--means there's another task,task 1(a), coming.

Task 1 (b):

-Using Open Office Writer,design a greeting card, which consists 3 parts.

-Front: The cover of the card may be a combination of text & images. The front of the card is what initially grabs the attention and sets the theme for the card.

-Inside message: Write your own message inside the card. eg: poem, quotation,joke, etc..etc..

-Back: Put your name, Matric number, group number and personal logo (optional).

-Deadline: Next Friday (3rd of December 2010)

Pretty card that I've made~ XD Very easy, I just use my completed-art images and Open Office writer isn't that hard to be used. I love the card theme..very cloudy, I mean, got many clouds. Heart it a lot.. :D

Here's the snapshot before I saved them in my USB.

Press the image for full view

*The kawaii cloud in the right page and the balloons are not mine. Credits to the owners.

The short note at the right should be read like this:

important .

5 | things you must do during this holiday:

10 metres away from academic books.
12 hours sleep per day.
Travel and enjoy good foods and drinks.
Shopping / window shopping.
Buy for me something.hehe..

* I would rather go online or read books or play with my cats or doing Silat or outing with my family than doing things above.haha..

Here's my newly edited logo. I'll use it as my watermark from now on.

If you are wondering what's the Japanese phrase means, it means 'Little White Cat'. The way to pronounce it is chisana-shiroi-neko.

I love the barcode very much. I've installed the font from Fontparadise, so many to choose from.

Alright..! Now it is time to sleep-a celebration-. Tomorrow have to go print up my card, and continue doing my other unfinished assignment. @.@ huhuhu...

Mewmew~

Shoes.Handbag.and Sinful Delights.

2010-11-20T21:57:00.001+08:00

-Confession Handbag~ada cerita di sebalik lukisan :p -

-Teha's shoes as models~for Hisbah purpose-

-My youngest brother's cake~made by myself, with a little help from my mom for the toppings-

-Overall view of Chocolaty Fruity Fiesta cake~Mom's choc chip cookies at the side-

Cool..!-Animator vs. Animation-by Alan Becker

2010-10-06T14:31:00.000+08:00

Stumbled upon this video.
Posting here to share.

Relaxing Moments Before Busyness Starting to Engulf

2010-10-05T20:32:00.000+08:00

Three weeks.of.holidays.
Three weeks.of.free time.
Three weeks.of.doing nothing serious.
Three weeks.of.pampering the cats.
Three weeks.of.relaxation.

before...

-Silat meeting-have to submit report
-RAFEST @ Raudhah Festival- hahah...
-Classes of:
1.English level 6 (if not being exempted-yet)
2.Arabic level 2
3.Math 2
4.Physics 2
5.Understanding Islam
6.Computer 1
-unknown activities. Estimation: 10

One thing for sure, tonight I must play ps2.

2 papers to go..!

2010-09-22T23:20:00.000+08:00

Yeah!!
Then I'm free!!! For three weeks starting by next Monday!!!
This Saturday is Physics, and this Sunday is Mathematics.

GOOD LUCK TO ALL PEOPLE WHO ARE TAKING EXAMS. Classmates, Roommates, Chess-mates, Ex-schoolmates, Childhood-mates, and juniors who are taking UPSR, PMR, and SPM.

All the best!

Feeling high

2010-09-05T01:20:00.004+08:00

sky eater is back in action!

Let's take a look on Sky Eater's previous episodes..

Episode one: The Hectic-ness of doing assignment.
Synopsis: Sky eater was a graphic designer for her mag-group. She slept late for 5 days in a row, thanks to her computer RAM for being super-slow *Shake hands*. Her group has successfully submitted their assignment after some tedious time of printing the magazine. Somehow, luck was not on their side. They didn't win because they didn't focus on the content.sobsobsob... Yeah..next time, just copy and paste superb essays rather than making your own. Jot down that, people. Muahahaha...~! ..JOKING!!! :)
(YOUTH Magazine-the magazine name was inspired by 'Oretachi no Seishun')

Episode two: Money hearts Sky Eater.
Synopsis: An ugly young lad, Money, had an affection towards Sky Eater. Days and Nights have compromised with Money to hunt Sky Eater's life. They succeeded to make her felt nervous about Money. She tried hardly not to make any commitment with Money, but she failed. Her guardian, the step-father, Master Economy Bureau, had forced her to tie the knot with Money. She didn't have any choice, thus she agreed. Her gloomy days doesn't last long. Her faithful dragon, White-faced Treasurer, came to her rescue. The mighty dragon blew her Blue Fire on Money, and poof! The Money had gone into the thin air. White-faced Treasurer glided down to land onto the grassy land. She lowered her neck, letting Sky Eater to ride on her, and flew off to the Cloudy Palace. Sky Eater finally had live happily ever after. yay~!

Episode three: Tutorial lala Quiz
Synopsis: One word. Pening.

Episode four: Exam d Finale
Synopsis: Two words. Lebih Pening.

(~craving for fried ice-cream)

I'm proud of you

2010-08-31T11:20:00.003+08:00

Dear love,

thanks for becoming one part of my life..
thanks for giving me a place to feel safe..

thanks for letting me having precious time with my family..

thanks for the friends that you have presented me..

thanks for the peace that you have created for me..

thanks for giving my friends the same love too..

thanks for the lovely experiences that have been made between us..

I'm very proud to admit to the world..

very brave to announce..

very happy to tell them..

that I do love you..

my deary..

..my Malaysia

even though you have flaws..

even though there are still poor and needy that haven't yet receive your love like I do..

even though we are still way behind the 1st class countries..

even though some of us are still among the ignorance..

even though you're quite shabby, dirty, and smelly ..

even though most 'Malays' have betrayed the malay concept, the concept that have contributed your name..

but I believe..

I believe in you..

you would change gradually..

you'll be a better place..

and I promise you..

I'll help you out..

Don't let me down..

please..

keep on preserve the love between us..

I'll assure you..that I'll be with you no matter what will happen..

just don't ever betray me..

or else our connection will become severe..

as my actual lover is my ALLAH..

if our path differ from my faith..

then, we are not meant to be together..

sorry, dear..this is me..

but I will always pray that you won't divert from our promises..

"HAPPY 53th INDEPENDENCE DAY TO MALAYSIA"

"Merdekakan lah pemikiran kita..dari segala pemikiran jahat dan negatif..dari segala macam benda yang telah memanipulasikan moral kita..dari segala macam benda yang telah menjadikan kita alpa.. Wahai rakan-rakan seperjuanganku..saudara dan saudari..'brothers and sisters'..berubahlah demi kejayaan kita di dunia dan di akhirat.."

Exhauuuuuuuuu...ssted..

2010-07-11T01:04:00.001+08:00

Mommy Daddy.. I'm HOME-again!! haaaaak.....! With some clothes that need laundry! XD

Today, my second bro came home visiting us, as usual.
So, a few hours ago, daddy, my brother , and I did some filing on our family's old books and documents. Those things bring back old nostalgic moments, especially the drafts of comics made by my brothers and their ex-school-mates. I'll post the pictures of the drawings once I'm free to do that. We also found one of me eldest brother's piece of short story, and its kinda ticklish to the heart. X)
(reading the short story-Pendekar Katak Jadian a.k.a The Frog Warrior while blogging)
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and he even made a sing-along-song for the Pendekar Katak Jadian too. (hha~! XD )
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(*-still laughing evilly)

It has been busy days for me as I'm a club member of INTECH_SS, Culture and Art Club, vice of Pub n info for my 7th floor hisbah, and vice of bureau of Economy of Silat (will not be so sickening as when I was in the Wushu club before, which almost everything I had to handle and manage them up). And I'll be super busy in two weeks time, as mid-sem exam gonna crack my head very soon. I'll do my best. not to 'try', but to 'do'.

Howargh...my eyes is very heavy and demanding me to sleep. Gotta wake up early tomorrow too.
Good night readers..

-.-zzZZz

Update of the month..or should I say..mise à jour du mois ?? :)

2010-06-27T00:36:00.001+08:00

Yellow~ :)

Sorry for not updating..especially to my Law friend because I broke my promise. (*Sorrrryyyy Ms. Al...and I couldn't call you because my bill has reached about 90% of my limit... TT )
I hereby would like to tell a little bit about my recent routine.

Our class has started about three weeks ago, and I'm glad for the first time that my classmates are very decent, compared to my previous years..

I kinda agree that the way of teachings between the school and the pre-U ways are very different, but it is not a problem for me.

Almost every week there would have talks held in our AMF hall. The talks are very interesting and helps to update my way of thinking.

I kinda blur in my one of language class, luckily the contact hour is 5 hours only per week.ho3...

I really like my roommates. Two of them are Kelantan-nis, which made me sometimes lost when they speak to each other, and the other one is from Perak. The three of them are very funny and outspoken. I love them all.. :)

Our neighbour-roommates are law students. This next Monday they will have their exam. Good luck~! (One of them thought that I was a Sarawakian. lol!)

That's all for now. I've nothing to write anymore. Owh! By the way, I'm now a Silat student. Sorry Wushu.. There's no Wushu here, but Silat is not bad at all. I'm going to love it. Wish me luck~!

Nite..

31/05/2010

2010-05-30T02:09:00.001+08:00

Happy birthday, daddy!

(the caterpillar is not my dad)

Currently I'm living in this hostel:

"Ukhwah doesn't always need togetherness, doesn't need everyday conversation, as long as the relation live in the du'aa, it remains abadan abada..."

>>PPIWP<<

*ukhwah, lit: fraternity; du'aa, lit: prayer; abadan abada, lit: forever after

Returning to my hometown

2010-05-21T00:13:00.000+08:00

My my.. I'll be starting my study in less than a week! It is time for seriousness to overcome me. That's why I've made my background colour back to white, no more sleepless nights. I'm sure most of you are relieved as now that you won't have to strain your eyes reading my post.
           My dilemma has gone. Great! You know what, I declined the institutions that I targeted last year because of my recent offer from an unexpected University. It was my secret that I wanted to go to this U since I was little. The news of the offer was really great news for my family and I. I was offered to study in Foundation of Engineering and Computer Science. I'm happy and feeling very grateful to my Creator. Thank God! Thanks to Allah! Alhamdulillah!
           When I was six years old, my kindergarten made our convocation day at the Foundation Center of the U. I won a second place trophy from the institution too but I can't remember what kind of competition it was that I participated in. I also still have the mug that I received during the convo as a gift for me from them.
           Few years later, about 6 years after that, my primary school sent a bunch of standard six students to a UPSR seminar which was held at the institution. There was a time during a break that me and my friends did some walking in the U. Suddenly we became 'high' and we started to chase one another. I chased them till I was accidentally pinned to the back door of our Seminar hall. It hurt me a lot, especially on my right cheek because my friend closed the door super fast.
           5 years later, which was last year, I attended my SPM seminar at the same place too. My friend and I coincidentally met with our classmate and our ex-classmate. I also met with my ex-school buds from my form 1 school. I chatted a lot of with them because I missed them.
           After SPM result day, my family and I had discussed about the best course that I should take. Either I.T or Computer Science would be the best for me as I got A+ in Math, A for both Physics and English, and B+ for both Add Math and Chemistry. And also because I LIKE anything to do with those computer thingies.
           I didn't think that I would be placed at my dream university because I didn't take certain subject that I thought would be compulsory for the entering qualification. And this would be my another dream come true.
           By the way, my parents presented me my first mobile phone, I mean, my very OWN and not a second-hand one. It is a cheap, budget phone but comes complete with everything. From a video camera to internet access, it's complete. I love it. I named it...'selamat'. 'Selamat' from thieves. 'Selamat' from short-life. 'Selamat' from mobile phone virus. 'Selamat' from everything. amen. :)

simple art

2010-05-08T17:01:00.000+08:00

Original idea

Fish

Insect

Bird

Mammalian

Amphibian

Reptilian

Extinction

Back from the north

2010-05-05T02:19:00.002+08:00

Kedah.

It was a new experience for me and my younger brother to visit there. They have lots of paddy fields along the road. I was hoping to catch and bring back home some grasshoppers for my atuk to cook some 'rendang belalang' ( Halal. Halal. Yes, it is), as the best place to catch them in vast numbers was at the paddy fields. My father told me they were very crunchy and tasty. Unfortunately, I was told by the villagers in Kuala Kedah that the they could not be eaten anymore as they are rich with pesticide. So looks like I will have to endure my

craving for a longer time.

We had also gone to Langkawi, an island famous with charm, beauty and it is tax-free. The Langkawi name was derived from 'lang' for 'helang'/ eagle, and 'kawi' for marble in Sanskrit . My mom said it was not the same Langkawi as it was during the 90's, before Malaysia started the Le Tour de Langkawi and the LIMA exhibition. The old Langkawi had less vehicles running through the roads, less buildings, their local products was less expensive, it had more paddy fields and virgin forests.

One thing for sure is, if you meet anyone from Kedah, you can see they are very down to earth and very humble. (If not all, then mostly of them.)

I did bring my drawing kit but I didn't have time to draw. So perhaps I shall post one of my father's photos to end up my words. It's a purple flower lotus captured at a hotel that we stayed.

What do you think? Ain't it beautiful?

I've made a tribute..

2010-04-24T02:30:00.002+08:00

..to my Bulat Sr.
This new blog image is dedicated to him. The URL. The banner. The page title.

(I hate manual. Especially manual car, and GIMP- a software for photo/picture editing. But once I've figured it out, I'm happy.)

Forgotten

2010-04-19T20:19:00.004+08:00

Sketch-1

(first hour)

Sketch-2

(Forth hour)

Final piece

(10th hour)

Purely based on my imagination.

The title was given after I've finished the inking.

(KMS..here I come!!)

uh..something that you've read before.

2010-04-08T03:12:00.003+08:00

Here are some of poems that I've made long before. I'm not a pro, but I hope you enjoy reading them (or perhaps, to recite them :P )
Some of my other poems have lost because I accidentally unsaved them. What a waste..
[ I hate plagiarism, but it's okey to copy and paste them if you give credit to me :) ]

:Silent Night:

While attempting to put myself into a deep slumber,

the pupils of my eyes won't stop to quiver.

Darkness of the room became a blanket for me,

unfortunately,

I do not feel dreamy nor sleepy.

As I sat on my bed and opened up a window,

Throwing my view across the night shadow,

Ocean of stars glittering hypnotically bright,

But my hands couldn't reach them for their height.

I kept on arguing myself with a weird question..

am I shifting from a normal human to a nocturnal creature?

overpowering the night, but morning living in tire..

Oh,please..

could someone put this insomnia to cease..

maybe a sweet lullaby would help to ease..

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:Farewell:

Anxiety together with passion,

Swimming and drowning in the knowledge ocean,

Committing, learning, and yearning,

Eerily come inattentively with feelings,

Sorrow and fears,

Sadness and tears,

Knocking heavily in the mind,

and happiness fixed them all back, making them fine.

Evil and darkness,

Sheltering in the heart,

Turning human insane and growing apart.

Care and sacrifices,

Putting destruction and inhumanity to cease,

Mixing love and nature in peace.

The enemies would break thou's heart,

Then, thee shall build up a wise rampart,

The foes would choke thou's thought,

Then, attack them as how the ancient scholars have fought.

School is almost over,

and many confusions are still in thy's bother,

As thou enter the challenging world,

The footsteps that thou take, lead thee to the cruels,

No one will be by thou side,

Back stabbers trying killing thee inside,

in effort to rupture thou's pride,

For this I have always cried,put thy's courage and faith well-tied.

p.s::

To my friends that I dear,

Each of you have a very bright future,

Your joy in you,

Is a joy in me too,

When you are sad and blue,

You will always have me to be with you.

Hiya! :)

2010-04-04T16:50:00.185+08:00

Hey!

Howdyy? had a damn boring day today :s
whats up at your place?
Anyway, i can bet you're going to smile after reading this... :))

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Yours Truly

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(I have to tell you. It's a SPAM!-that's why I've changed the actual link into 'http://www.itsaspam!.com/ ', afraid you might actually 'log-in' into the website. And it's insecure!!! Does that hits you why they lowered the 'secure' font??)

First of all, I want to DECLARE that I didn't forward this message, if you happened to receive it from 'me'.

Second, I have never BLOCKED anyone in messenger. If I don't want to have a chat, I'll put my status as invisible or sign-out off chat.

Third, when I received the list of my friends that had blocked me, the timing was incorrect as they showed to me the time of my friend blocked me were during the year of 2008 and the middle year of 2009. In fact, I've actually added most of my contacts at the end of the year of 2009, which was after SPM ended.

Forth, this site is actually wants your phone number and your e-mail add with the password. They will try to gain your trust by deceiving you about a fake list of number of person(s) who blocked you. When it worked, you'll then wanted to take the I.Q test beneath the list, which have caught your attention on the first place. Then they will ask you your phone number so that you can receive the test result. At this point only I've made the right decision, to not giving out my hp number. It's very personal to me, and it was a mistake that I've 'logged-in' into the site, as they have obtained my e-mail address, with my password.

Actually, at first I was not even bothered to post about this. But on the second thought, I'm afraid my friends would actually believe it and our friendship would be cracked a bit as they thought that I did this to them, which is not so. My anxiety on this started when my dad asked me yesterday morning about the message from 'me', before he open it. As we read through the message, 'I' sent this message to my dad, and cced to Cheryl and Cmun. The weird part is when I checked my Sent messages, there was no message containing the message. And also, it was sent on Saturday, 3rd of April, at 3:32 am (around that time), and I was actually sleeping like a log as I was very tired driving during the day. I had no insomnia that night as is usually the case. If you don't believe me, ask my parents. They know how tired I was.

Here's the explanation:
My dad said, they've used their own web-server and used my e-mail add to send the spam and they have actually traced my contacts list. That's why my sent messages folder does not contain it. When they did this, 'my' recipient(s) would likely believe that the 'humble' message was from me. They are very manipulative...
I suggest you guys should change your password if you happened to enter the website, for the very least you could do.

(The spam message reminds me of a virus that could melt someone's brain if you get 'high' looking on the screen and hear the virus' sound. A computer virus that could infect people. scary!..
nah...it's only a science fiction based on a series called Fringe. Go and watch it every Saturday, 8:30 until 9:30 pm, NTV7)

art blog (?)

2010-03-28T23:31:00.002+08:00

Sometimes my feelings cannot be expressed in mere words. I would talk in confusion. For example, today I've said 'I want to watch television, but I don't want to watch it' .I'm sure you sensed the twisted sentence which I also couldn't decipher what I was saying. After some thought, I realized what I meant was 'I want to watch the documentary, but I've many chores that need doing'. Since I'm fairly good in drawing, and quite good in poems, I've decided to start 'art-blogging' from now on. My art blog (art-block??) would include literature, drawings, martial arts, and music-(maybe).

Here are some of my art-pieces that I drew when I was 14 years old, drawn based on someone's drawing;

>my teacher helped me a bit<

>drew in rush<

(have to sleep now, tomorrow have another driving lesson)

school-days (2)

2010-03-24T01:06:00.041+08:00

The unforgettable part of my life...begins.

Form 1- It was my first time schooling in a boarding-school. I had a culture-shock. I lost my own identity. I felt hopeless. I didn't know how to survive there. Somehow, I met my first best-friend and our friendship has lasted until today. I was the one who chose to study there, and I was the one who decided to leave the school.

Form 2- I gained my confidence. I studied hard. I was one of the top scorers. I was very happy.

Form 3- I participated as one of the runners in my red house team. I didn't win any prizes. I've concluded that I was not as strong as when I was in my primary school. I didn't socialize very much. The hard times was was worth it. I managed to become as one of the high-achievers in PMR.

Form 4- I was very hardworking as always. Add. Math was my favourite subject. Unfortunately, something unexpected happened on 5th May. My emotions started to become unstable. My motivation drooped. I didn't excel in my Add. Math anymore. Even during the darkest time, I was blessed as I was surrounded by many friends that tried to cheer me up. One of my lovely classmates, Cmun, was always there for me. She always forced me to finish up my homework. I completed them half-heartedly, but it was nice to have her as my friend.

Form 5-I became very active in co-curriculum. I always skipped my class, especially during Physics. I always busied myself. Maybe it was because I wanted to forget my misery, and at the same time, to cover up my lack of co-curriculum merits during my former years in SMKSS. I gained experiences in management. I practiced my graphic designing skills by designing a few T-shirts for my friends and my club. As SPM drew nearer, one of my family members was stabbed. I was little worried and unfocused in my study due to that, but relieved to find out he was safe and sound. My beloved cat died after I finished my Physics paper. He caught yellow fever. I've accepted fate. I studied Chemistry very hard for my final battle, it was my last chance to improve my Chemistry grade as I always get C and D grades for it.

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(11/03/2010- My SPM result was 2A+, 3A and 5B+. I was half happy, and half frustrated. Since then, I promised myself to become one of the high-achievers again by doing well in my graduation and my working life, and also, to become strong-hearted.)

This I would like to cherish my family, my teachers, my friends, my classmates,

and anyone (either directly or indirectly),

for all supports, teachings, sacrifices, inspirations,

and for being one part of my life.

Thank You...

(...alhamdulillah)

Chocolate

2010-03-21T19:31:00.004+08:00

I dislike chocolate colour.

But I love to eat them.

Chocolate..

so sinful..

yet,

so tempting.

so bitter..

yet,

so sweet.

*sigh*

Homemade chocolate chip..

Mocha..

Toblerone..

Mars Bar..

Snickers..

Chocolate cake with chocolate fudge..

Milk chocolate..

Chocolate spread..

Chocolate muffin..

Hot chocolate..

Cadbury..

Kinder Bueno..
Mon Cheri..
Vanhouten..
Beryl's..
Ferrero..
and Patchi (haven't tasted yet)..

must gain some will to resist them..
*I love chocolate*
*but it is so fattening!!*

First Time

2010-03-19T21:43:00.004+08:00

It was my first time being in a mall till after midnight.
and was my first time watched a movie in a cinema.., I mean..this year.
and was also my first time watched a 3D movie.
and, it was the first time I laughed crazily in the mall..but not because of the movie..it's something personal.

Actually, my family and I planned to watch Alice in Wonderland, unfortunately the 3D version was fully-booked.
With a sudden of luck, I saw the 'How To Train Your Dragon' title, 3D version, in the computer screen of the ticket seller..
and we did watch it last night, which started by 11.55pm.
and I liked it!
and the dragon was cute, especially the Night Fury.
My rating: 8 out of 10 stars, a must watch for who hasn't.

New-image

2010-03-18T16:08:00.004+08:00

I've revamped my blog by using a template designer.

Doing it manually would be nice, but using the Blogger template designer really saved my time, a lot.

I really love the clouds as my background image.

They remind me of candy floss.

um...nyumnyumnyum...

My original design (the custom-made) was very dark.

Too emo for me. ugh!..

and this one has made me feel calm,

and full of hopes.

By the way,

if you do not know where to find the Blogger template designer,

just log in by using draft.blogger, not the normal blogger. It has some features that are in beta mode before they release them to everyone.

In the 'Layout' section (recently they've changed the section name to 'Design' for draft blogger), there's a new link which would appear after the 'Pick New Template' column which is written as 'Template Designer' (obviously..).

If you want to use your own background image, just upload the image in an image page, which you have to do it manually (I will write about the additional page feature after this - this is just an option, you can upload the picture in other picture uploader).

After uploading the image, click on it and copy the URL of the picture.

Then, go to the edit HTML page and search for the string that is highlighted in pink below (the highlighted link is my current background URL):-

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<Variable name="body.background" description="Body Background" type="background"

color="$(body.background.color)"

default="$(color) none repeat scroll top left" value="#B4E0F8 url(http://themes.googleusercontent.com/image?id=1wLTWkU_6PD30roBJNfOzJkbDSVdh23FfY
svrDIfh8emJnpH0BAOKT4kTP4ytiOfdJE2g) repeat scroll top center /* Credit: Goldmund (http://www.istockphoto.com/googleimages.php?id=5729038&platform=blogger) */"/>

default="none" value="none"/>/>

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and change the link that is highlighted in blue.

Tips::

repeat / no-repeat / repeat-x / repeat-y

scroll / fixed

top left / top right / top center/ left / center / right / bottom left / bottom center / bottom right

*repeat-x means repeat horizontally, while repeat-y means repeat vertically (in one line)
*make sure to backspace between them and also between the 'repeat' things element and the URL.

Other than that, you can find a pages feature.

First, click at 'Edit Post' or 'New Post' (whichever you like as long as it is under 'Posting').

You may see 'Edit Pages' at the third column.

If you don't want gadgets to create links automatically on your blog, as you want to create some 'fancy link button' for other pages, just click the 'No Gadget' button when you are asked how would you like your Pages Gadget to appear. When you do this, you will have to link to other pages manually, for example the 'About Me' and 'Contact' pages. Perhaps you can use the javascript widget to create the fancy links.

Enjoy!

Bugged by a few single things.

2010-03-05T01:05:00.002+08:00

Hola! :D

I've a few story that I wanna write down, certain tragedies that are still disturbing me,
and this would be some of yours too.

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I remember how a bunch of big guys kicked a kitten in front of me.
(not really that front, sorts like a few metres away)
They were so pitiless to the poor kitty.
I didn't go to help it, as I was not that strong to fight them,
and I thought, the kitten was dead, because I didn't see it anymore after that day...

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A few years ago, there was a pretty little girl cycled every evening in our residence,
with her maid walked beside her.
The maid pinched and canned her if the girl did something that were wrong in her eyes,
even though the girl was fallen from the bicycle.
Everyday, her maid would talk with other maid, from other house,
and gave the girl sweets so the girl would behaved, and thus, she had a leisure time, talking,
while the girl would wait to continue cycling.
The girl's family was not a happy family.
But her face doesn't seem as she was bothered, but you never know the inside of her.
At one moment, we didn't see her cycling anymore.
The girl was found dead.
Our neighbor showed us a newspaper that reported about her death.
She choked herself with the sweets while she was cycling...

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When I was still schooling,
my classmate named Yen,
told me once,
a granny which happened to be her neighbor,
threw a few newborns kitty into a drain behind her house,
with her full-force,
mad because the tabby cat delivered its kittens inside her house.
Yen did hear the knocking sound between the sculls and the drain,
like throwing stones onto a pavement.

The world is full of beautiful things that are destroyed by our own hands.
Our mail-box is full of stories forwarded by our concerned friends regarding to the helpless beings.
From the cute baby seals hunt to the children murder , are some of the cruelty that aren't acceptable
I really hope that I would never witness such things,
nor should I be one of them...

...and I'm glad,
that god have created hell...

school-days

2010-02-27T19:10:00.030+08:00

Ironically I do not miss schooling, which is quite the opposite of how I was feeling last year. But, schooling made me hectic from day till night.Being busy was sort of fun. As I can skip from feeling numb for the whole time by thinking of my busyness. And some of my busy days gave me some nostalgic moments.

Standard 1- My home class teacher appointed me to be her class monitor, she thought I was very strict and capable to do my job as a monitor. At first, everyone in the class was afraid of me. But, then, after a while, they didn't. Because… one by one, they asked my permission to go to the toilet during a free period, until only about ten people were left in my class… and I was very naive during that time, really thought they got some cholera epidemic. Pn.Siew 'fired' me because the cheaters were gone playing hookey...LOL! I was cheated! yalah… standard one only during that time.

Standard 2- Our school made same RIMUP with a Japanese school. I was one of those selected. My Japanese friends were very nice. I really miss my days being in their school and the time they visited our place. We had to do a lot of preparation before they came visiting us.

Standard 3- I became a librarian. I was very dedicated in doing my job. Skipped my recess, read in the library, organized the books, and jested with other librarians. hah... such a beautiful days…

Standard 4- Still was a librarian, and I was a little inactive that year.

Standard 5- Busy as a librarian too, but broke the history of my school, as the first youngest chief librarian, and it was not I who wanted it, my juniors voted for me, almost all of them. :) Even the teachers in my uniformed unit elected me as the chief, which broke the record again. Pity the seniors who craved for the elections. X)

Standard 6- I resigned from being a librarian. En. Seleman was a bit sad because he still wanted me to be the chief, but I had an important exam that year, so couldn't make it. But I was still the chief of the u.unit. At least, I still can collect some more certificates. I excelled in my UPSR. :) I didn't cry. I didn't exaggerate. I felt numb. If you did pinch me, I won't react. My pain receptors were shut-down.

Okey, it looks like as if I'm writing an essay. Wait for the 'school-days (2)'

adios.

Sniff

2010-02-26T02:36:00.002+08:00

ah.....fresh air :)

finally updating my blog again.

My dad asked me (he is my first client), to design his business card based on his original card, as the file of the ori card's design couldn't be found.
(naah..actually I'm his worker)

and..poof!99.999999% of the design is similar to the ori. *happy*
and my dad is also
*happy*
but my FFX is
*unhappy*
haven't played ps2 for a month now.
Oh well,
I should start to exercise by now.
I've been pampering myself for too much.
anyway..SPM result day is very soon.
and I'm feeling numb.
I don't know whether I should be scared..
or feeling excited..
or anxious..
or melancholy (as I'm going to meet my old school buddies)
orr..........owh..i just don't know
very *kebas*

*sniff*

ah..
ah..!

chuh!

21 Februari 2010

2010-02-21T01:59:00.009+08:00

Hari Ulang Tahun Saya yang ke-(??) !

Sungguh Gembira!

Kerana..

Tahun ini, lebih ramai rakan-rakan saya yang mengucapkan *SELAMAT HARI JADI* kepada saya.

Walaupun hanya boleh dibilang jari..dalam 5 orang rakan, sekurang-kurangnya kali ini ada juga yang memberi ucapan kepada saya.

Pada masa tahun-tahun yang sebelum ini, tiada langsung yang meraikan hari jadi saya (keluarga tidak termasuk dalam kenyataan ini).

Rasa terkilan, ada juga, tapi..nasiblah ya...

Walaupun umur meningkat, tidaklah bermakna saya semakin tua. Umur hanyalah sebuah nombor. Hanya pengalaman, fahaman dan kematangan yang mengukur keperibadian seseorang.

Saya bersungguh-sungguh dan berazam pada tahun ini untuk menjadi lebih baik daripada tahun lalu..

lebih baik daripada saya yang silam..

lebih ikhlas daripada huluran pertolongan saya yang lalu..

dan lebih berkeyakinan daripada saya yang lemah semangat pada masa lampau.

dan selamat melalui liku-liku hidup sebagai pelajar tingkatan 3 kepada sepupu saya yang sama tarikh lahir dengan saya.

(skema?haha..maaflah yek. 21 Feb merupakan tarikh untuk menggunakan bahasa ibunda di peringkat dunia. Jadi..no english nor manglish lah yek.heeeeeeeee... nak cakap dalam bahasa Bangla, tak tau plak. :p )

16/1/2010

2010-01-17T08:41:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ABG KIKI!

I polished your car as your present.

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(they say they still wanted to borrow your car for their showroom)

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15/1/2010

2010-01-16T05:05:00.002+08:00

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(ori from me tau~)
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Hello World! :P

2010-01-13T07:37:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim,

Welcome to my custom-made-blog. :)

Wassalam..

小さな白い猫

lil gal in telekung

I'm in love again..

flower.beads.more flowers

final project-hardware, and anger

Seeking inspiration

I don't want to adore or crushing anyone!Please! (edited)

It's exam month

I AM A MISERY~

Tiring yet exciting

Please forgive me...

Foods for my friend's eyes

Doodles-edited

30 minutes or less-pencil drawings

Defied the odds, I've succeed (Delayed Post)

Digits and Me

Nostalgic songs :)

Sekapur sirih, seulas pinang

Basic Introduction on Web Hosting for Beginners (Server Tools)

The result slip

The time has come

THE GIFTS THAT ARE TRULY OUT OF THIS WORLD

What does it feels like to have brothers

2 weeks of torture, 3 months of bliss

countdown

Relationship

It's Holiday~! woot!

Shoes.Handbag.and Sinful Delights.

Cool..!-Animator vs. Animation-by Alan Becker

Relaxing Moments Before Busyness Starting to Engulf

2 papers to go..!

Feeling high

I'm proud of you

Exhauuuuuuuuu...ssted..

Update of the month..or should I say..mise à jour du mois ?? :)

31/05/2010

Returning to my hometown

simple art

Back from the north

I've made a tribute..

Forgotten

uh..something that you've read before.

Hiya! :)

art blog (?)

school-days (2)

Chocolate

First Time

New-image

Bugged by a few single things.

school-days

*Sniff*

21 Februari 2010

16/1/2010

15/1/2010

Hello World! :P

Sniff